A bad case of writer's block yet again

While randomly surfing the broad world of the internet, and at the same time crying my heart out listening to Ed Sheeran's songs (which I am indeed very grateful for, The Ed Sheeran Collection; and yes, I go emotionally crazy when I listen to his songs although I've listened to them for the nth time already; and yes, Ed Sheeran has that uncanny effect on me ❤), I receive a new e-mail.

And the title reads: 'New comment on Forever and Ever' from 'The Wattpad Team'

I immediately feel my heart skip a beat (exagg). It's been a while since I updated my 'mugna' story which I carelessly posted on Wattpad for fun. I hastily access my account on Wattpad. People may think wattpad is cheap and all, but to be honest it's one of my favorite websites on the internet. There are actually some pretty good young writers on wattpad. :) But there are some writers which get on my nerves, but let's not get into that.

So, I go to my fanfiction, and look up the comments. And my immediate reaction is OMG.

My self-made book cover for the fanfiction. 

Just some of the comments on the last chapter I uploaded. I feel guilty making them [readers] wait.

What shocked me even more is that my fanfic has gotten 1.1K+ reads. The last time I checked it had only 400+ reads. The last status update I posted was "Trying to update as much as I can. :D Keep reading. :)" which was two months ago.

I feel so guilty, for some reason. It was just that I got stuck in school work, especially in our research study that I couldn't find the time for writing anymore. And now, I don't know what to write and how to continue the flow of the story. I feel left out and uninspired.

I need focus. And I have the time. Summer break is still ripe, and I've never felt so free in my life.

So, I hope I find the momentum, and I hope God provides enough inspiration for me to finish my craft. As a matter of fact, not once in my life have I finished any of my stories. I keep leaving them hanging and unfinished. This time, with the readers nagging for me to update and threatening to spam me if I don't (yes, some of the readers actually posed that threat on me), I'm sure willpower and inspiration is all it takes for me to accomplish what I started.

I won't let writer's block get me down. It's just an obstacle in the way. It has always been haunting me since the first time I made pen and paper meet, but no more. I will try my very best to outdo WB, and I will not stop until I have completed my story.

about to write a new chapter,
-a